What to do when you have a lot to do

Are you ever overwhelmed?  Your to do list is so long in your head that you can't imagine putting it on paper?

I am there right now.

My big to dos...
   Get my Masters
   Move
   Buy a new car  (when I get over my intense sadness of getting rid of my Jeep)
   Getting out of my medical bills
   Lose 50 pounds
   Get a new job
   Work harder on my coaching business
   Do a national level speech

My little to dos...
    Clean off my lay down couch
    Mop my kitchen
    Figure out how to do my hair in this new haircut
    Put out my Fall decorations
    Lose 5 pounds
    Finish the laundry

Enough?  Yes   Is this really all?  Probably not.

Sometimes I dream too big.  Sometimes I lose sight of the dream totally.

I am off the computer for a while this evening and the couch and I am having a meeting of the minds and I am going to win.  Then, maybe look for a job.

Everything is doable one step at a time.  I am off to start stepping.

I guess its better to hurt that feel nothing at all?

There is a country band out now called Lady A and they have a song out entitled, "I need you now".  One line in the song says, "I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all".

That line has me thinking.  How many people feel that way now.  I went on a tirade this week after walking behind a young woman at SIU-E (a local university) wearing stilettos--clomping along, bent knees, leaning weird.  I could only imagine it was because her feet hurt.  I have seen the pose before by a lot of women that choose the style.  Then, a few minutes later, I saw a girl with a skirt so short that you saw shadows in the nether region!  She was standing there pulling the garment down over and over again.

It seems that women are again to the point were it is better to be uncomfortable for fashion.  Sad.

But, I think it has to do with the current trend of public angst that is happening with all the reality TV and current economic problems.

I have had a lot of issues in my life and sometimes  I myself find myself on those particularly down days wishing I had a t-shirt that said, "so you think you are having a bad life, well let me tell you..." and then I would list all my woes.  (perhaps the shirt would have to be very big some days)

What to do, what to do?  I think we need to get someone to listen to our problems so we can dump them and move on.  Some are good dumpers, some are not.  Some want to dump and never be the listener.

My mission for the day--and week--identify when and who to dump to and then move away on on with my life.  Can you do it?

Doing the work

Today was one of those days.  First of all,  my son needed to be at school very early, dressed in a suit and I have to admit I now realize he is a man, not a boy anymore.  First issue for me to deal with.

Then, off to ZUMBA and the teacher that I am comfortable with was walking out of the building as I was going in.  Not good.  She had hurt herself and had a replacement instructor.  OK.  Except that she was much harder.  Second issue that I had to deal with.

Next, home for lunch and a call to discuss a book writing project.  The person wasn't immediately available so that was put on hold momentarily.  That left my mom time to call me to say she had lost something that was pretty important and was going to go down and get her trash out of the dumpster.  She is currently barely able to walk due to needing a knee replacement.  I was not going to let her dig through the dumpster.  But, I had registered to participate in a speed networking meeting at 1:30.  It was now 12:15.  Possible?  Had to make it happen.  So, I quickly get dressed and cleaned up, race to my mom's house, get her trash out, item not there.  Go to her apartment and look under furniture, in drawers, etc.  Not there, either.  Tell her I have to go.  And race to my meeting.  Next issue to deal with is my mom is beginning to have more needs and I am questioning my ability to meet them.

So, here I sit, writing about my issues.  I am perceiving things in old ways--both my son and my mom.  My son doesn't need me as much and that makes me sad and my mom needs me more and that makes me sad.  Huh?  Next is my perception of myself.  I didn't think I could do the class, but I did.  I don't necessarily like a physical challenge, but I need it.  I wanted to pack up and go home early, but I did it.

How are perceptions clouding your experiences?  I need to take slower looks and make sure I am seeing what is happening and not running as soon as it gets difficult.  That is my goal for the next days ahead.

Great day.  Aren't they all?

C H O I C E

What is this blog about?
It is about choice.
My choice.
Your choice.

C hoosing
H appiness
O ver
I nternal
C haos
E veryday

This is the day I will start.

What internal chaos do I need to overcome?

For me it is the problems of others that I let take precedent over my needs.  It is the fact that I allow my likes to overtake my needs.  It is that I let the criticism of others, and their lack of self respect and esteem, destroy my self respect and needs.

What internal chaos do you need to overcome?

CHOICE, it is easy to do and easy to forget.

Want to come along for the journey?

The CHOICE is yours.